Tomorrow Zep will take his walk down the aisle of the church and "officially" graduate from Kindergarten. I've been anxiously awaiting this day for the last several months. The day when I'm no longer rushing to school in the morning, rushing home in the evening, and trying somewhere in there to connect with my kids. And now the day is upon me...and I'm scared &*"#*$&#!!!
I've watched the Facebooks posts:
What am I going to do with my kids home ALL summer!
I can't believe my preschooler will be gone all week next year!
We're so excited for the break during the summer!
I'm not much of a status Facebooker; I much prefer to stalk other's status' instead. If I were to type up a status today it would read something like...
Starting tomorrow what in the world am I going to do with my children until they go to college?? They're really going to be with me EVERY SINGLE DAY??!!! Will I ever get a break again??
Scared = Me!! I've heard that the first year is the hardest. Sticking through that year will be the determining factor on how well this will work for me. I'm getting rid of all the uniforms, and I've already spent an arm and a leg at IKEA, so we have no choice but to make homeschooling work. Plus, all those wonderful ladies at the convention pretty much made me feel guilty to ever want to part with my children again!!! Not to mention the books I've read in support of homeschooling. I feel like the apostles after first seeing Jesus resurrected..suddenly my eyes were opened! I know that this is for the long haul. We previously thought we'd think about high school when we got there. But even now, I kinda think they'll stay home then as well. Heck, if we've made it that far...why not continue!!
Besides being scared, I'm excited!! I can't wait to watch my children learn. Zep has gotten into this reading kick lately. All he wants to do is sit in my lap and read to me. And not to brag or anything (okay, maybe I'm bragging a little), but he's pretty dang good! It makes my heart sing to hear him read. I'm excited to become a part of the wonderful Catholic homeschooling group in our area. I've already met some incredibly faithful women. I can't wait to learn from them and feed off their Jesus vibes!
So, tomorrow...I'll probably cry. A lot of the friends I've made at our school will become distant memories. With four weekend Masses, we're very likely to miss one another. The dreams that I once had for my children have changed. Their friends will change, as will mine. Although scared and excited, I'm ready. I'm ready for the new adventure..the one that waits beyond the Kindergarten graduation!