Can I just brag that I've not once, over the last month, missed my wake up time? For those of you who know me this is HUGE! I love my sleep. But it hasn't even slightly occurred to me each morning as the alarm is going off to hit the snooze and enter back into dreamland. I've been completely awed by this new me. I know my dear hubby has been as well.
With the early wake ups has also come this crazy motivation to keep the house clean. The laundry, the bathrooms, picking up, organizing...it's all being done. It's like I've been replaced by robo-mom.
But before I brag too much, about midweek last week, it all started building up on me. I was burnt out, and in my burnout I started to feel bad for myself. How was I going to keep up this pace? Heck, the fourth baby isn't even here yet. How am I going to do it in a few months when he/she is here? I had built up the argument for hubby...you know the one -please, please love me enough to get me a maid. Unfortunately, hubby didn't bite.
So, the next day I got up and did it all again. And the next day, again. It just continued. Burnout or not, I had to keep going. It was during this time that it really hit me. I signed up for this job. We don't have four children by accident. God and I have this agreement that if he sees fit for me to mother more children, than by all means let Him bring it on! But did I honestly think that I was going to have the same amount of downtime with four children as I did with one or even two? Obviously I've been crazy enough to believe just that.
The moment I started to really understand and appreciate the job I had been given and prayed for was the moment that the burnout went away. Now don't get me wrong, I'm absolutely exhausted most every night. The stray dish that hubby throws in the sink after I finished cleaning them all hours ago still drives me up a wall. But I'm no longer begging for a maid, because I know I can do this. I'm certain that I can do this, because God only gives us what we can handle. I trust that even in the times I feel like I can't go on that I have the Lord to lean on.
Here we mothers sit in this never ending, thankless job we've been given. I don't know about you, but it's the greatest gift I've ever opened. Thanks be to God!