Being there, in the presence of some of the most holy women and man I know, really caused me to sit back and take a hard look at myself. I get all the basics of the tripod...piety, study, action. I've always known where I struggle in those areas. No new news there, but definitely a reminder to try harder.
Would you be surprised that what ran through my thoughts the most was the world of technology? I kept returning to it so often that it soon became clear that God was trying to get me to open my eyes.
I found myself remembering a piece of advice someone long ago told me. They place a sign on their television with the question, "Would you watch this show if Jesus was sitting next to you?" I'll admit that my husband has constantly pointed out my lack of morals when it comes to picking out my TV viewing. It drives me crazy. Probably because in the back of my head I know it's the truth.
So, yesterday I ran through my scheduled DVR program list and deleted a lot of shows. Such a bittersweet moment! I know I'm doing the right thing, but goodness it hurt to see that two hours of Grey's Anatomy leave the list of shows needing to be watched. All forms of the Bachelor also disappeared; the Pad and -Ette! It was like saying goodbye to a friend that you know only causes you trouble. How ridiculous do I sound really? I wish I wasn't serious!
Along with my TV addiction, comes my addiction to Facebook. I don't spend hours at a time on it, but the five minutes here and there definitely add up to A LOT of wasted time. Here's the dilemma, I use Facebook for so many necessary things...coupons, homeschooling information, etc. So, I've spent the last two days unsubscribing from just about everyone's news feed that has no relevance to me. I'm hoping this will be a balanced solution.
|Photo credited to eeekays photography|
It's hard to look in the mirror; really, really look. You have to look to see the cracks though. Without seeing them how can you even begin to start making repairs. I'm so thankful for the Cursillo weekend for giving me the opportunity to fix what I was trying so hard not to see.